Dear Marcello, I read your e-mail and found out that you are religious, you have always trusted in God that you are a vegetarian, that in your life, you moved several times, you talked about many issues. It was as if you were talking about my life, with the only difference you will you come out, and I sailed again in despair. I trust in God day after day. I do not have a steady job, I automantenermi, I have memory problems, self esteem, I consider myself very smart because I learned what little I've never had a chance to remember. One day I asked for a consultation with a psychiatrist to see if mine is anything wrong. I replied that I act like I had feelings of guilt and that I should do to cure me of sitting fee. Clearly, I could not do for lack of funds. Since childhood I have had many friends, why I've never understood, but after some time away. How can I expect to regain my self-esteem and, moreover, can not concentrate when I read (something important) I have read and reread it several times to understand, and even when I understood most of the time I forget it?.
Do you think they are serious? Will I be able one day to heal?

Answer: I was religious, you know ... religion and spirituality are two different things. Now I trust in God, but differently (I know that God can not be in heaven, but inside of me and every one of us).

I think it is normal for many, many times having to reread something to understand more. It happens to me too. Some people find it easier to understand, others less, but it happens to all that, reading and rereading, everything becomes much clearer than before and they understand each other nuances of speech that had not previously noticed. Everything has a solution.

The problem is that when we put together our entire history, coupled with our anxieties and fears. Past and future that is part of our identity. If some episodes of the past are considered bad then we are bad (according to the false identity based on past and future), our life is ugly and unbearable, as the memory itself ... But you can live like this?

Do not believe it is possible to leave the past behind forever, and that this past conditions over there now?

Take one thing at a time. He begins to notice how those internal reactions that make you feel bad, are independent of your will. He begins to notice that the past is, or seems to appear more important and powerful of the present moment ... NOTE THIS 'GIA' A THOUSAND STEPS HOW TO GO FORWARD.

Imagine if one day your ID card, your license and your credit card, started to have their own life! And you licenziassero from your work and try to move elsewhere, and send him to hell, your friends and relatives, took decisions for you, etc. ... even you accept that all these pieces of paper and plastic do you represent? I think not.

Just think ... these pieces of paper are not very dynamic. Remain like this for years, until one day they ask you to renew, to print another picture of yourself, which will probably still be there for u 'another decade, until you renew it again.

You're still the one person you see in the picture of your ID card or are you now changed?.

You still have the same emotional and mental state?

I would say that the identity card is merely pointing out where you can find, or when and where you were born, how tall you are, the color of your eyes ... that's all.

But whoever you are, can not be described in a piece of paper. That piece of paper so it is an abstraction, is limited, just not to say that is false. It only describes what appears on the surface.

Likewise, words, judgments, your comments about yourself, your beliefs and everything that moves in your mind, can be considered as not completely reliable, as false.

Your identity (what you believe to be, based on your past) is only a distorted image of what you really are now. A tiny aspect of what you perceived when you lived through the events that you remember, the events that you think are part of your identity.

What would happen if the authorities require that you wrote in your identity card (assuming there is space for it), your entire history, what you do every day, your mistakes, the circumstances giving you trouble, what you have done what you have done to others, etc.. and I had to expose this ID card every time it is requested you, every time I go to make a practice of any kind, and so asked you a photocopy of your ID, this would be something useful and coherent? You'd really are the one person who is described in the identity card? It would be a little too much to go around with your whole baggage of the past, actions, omissions, or damages inflicted on others, etc..

Believe me, we go around this life, showing that false identity, not written in a piece of paper (maybe it was just that), but embedded within our psyche, sparandola in all directions as if we were a radio station that does not stop transmit its message.

Trained in the note, then bring your attention to the physical sensation that makes you feel this emotion. Bring your attention to what happens inside you.

The truth is that you are not your emotions, emotional reactions, but are the one who should just look at these reactions. The "problem" is when you completely drowned in emotions from mental structures inherited or acquired in the past. This past which tells you who "you" are.

Gave himself 'you can not change the past, this fact makes you feel "hopeless," now "hopeless". But then why keep this pain inside? ... Because, for better or worse, knowing who you are (as the voice of that fake ID) at least you have an identity.

It does not matter at this point is that if the identity of victim of unlucky, useless, the opposite of everything or anything you can imagine being.

Begin to realize this. Begins to become aware of this.

Do not expect in the "future" will come to get rid of it, because this "hope" is another trap of the false identity was telling you about before. This hope is not just another false attitude of this housing to be in you, who needs to "future" to feel alive.

There is another exit that "Here and Now". This concept can not understand with my mind so do not worry if you have not understood yet. At the point where you are and you can learn only at this time and moved out from the surface of this ocean is this aspect of life, the aspect in which the forms are born and die, where there's all this movement ... as in the surface of the sea.

In summary: the full attention to the physical sensation of discount that you experience at any time, even with good feelings, so that you begin to bring awareness to your feelings and begins to find that you "the one who observes," that is YOU, and what you're watching.

Accorgiti the automaticity of these thoughts that cause pain.

This is what you begin to notice.

Not wanting to know everything you need to do from here on ...

To enter your home you just need a door and an awareness of what you hear right now is one of these ports.

Marcello